It’s so easy to slip off. So easy. And you don’t even realize you’re slipping off. Or you completely distract yourself until you get that moment of complete silence where you can no longer avoid your soul, and you realize that your soul is in a comatose. That feeling of emptiness, guilt – it’s all caused by lack of remembrance. How often do we remember our Lord, and sincerely mean our words and actions? How many times do we forget its meaning and allow our 5-a-day turn into a series of robotic movements?

Have you ever had a sincere conversation with Allah? It always works, and sitting down and voicing your thoughts and feelings is so relieving. We get that spiritual high… and (in some cases) we’re gone with the wind again. One thing I really dislike is running to Allah only when I need Him. Like calling an old friend, only when you need something from said friend. It’s an abusive relationship that God definitely doesn’t deserve. Any healthy relationship is based on give and take. Establishing that give and take relationship with Allah is key to a successful and peaceful life, here on Earth, and in the Hereafter, and we should all work towards that. Starting with myself.

And so, following my mother’s advice, may Allah be pleased with her, I’m starting off by making dhikr an essential part of my daily living. I’m making little post it notes and posting them in appropriate spots in my apartment insha’Allah. To remind me incase I forget. It kinda irks me that I have to run to my copy of Fortress of the Muslim for duas I should’ve memorized light years ago. You should try it too.

5:00AM ramblings. Maybe I can sleep now.

Abu Hurairah (May Allah be pleased with him) reported: Messenger of Allah (P.B.U.H) said, “Allah says: `I am just as My slave thinks of Me when he remembers Me.’ By Allah! Allah is more pleased with the repentance of His slave than one of you who unexpectedly finds in the desert his lost camel. `He who comes closer to Me one span, I come closer to him a cubit; and he who comes closer to Me a cubit, I come closer to him a fathom; and if he comes to Me walking, I come to him running.’”

[Al-Bukhari and Muslim]